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Sypha Belnades ⬤ Castlevania
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moonblessing ⬤ Sanguis

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[starmark]

what the fuck
is that

what the fuck is that a thing people can just do
drag people back from hell
what the fuck

[speakerstone]

Yes, I know. If you can somehow control it, the Infinite Corridor contains windows to many different realms. Hell is only one of them.

It must sound absurd, doesn't it? I burned his body, but I saw him alive as ever in Hell. Looking straight through us. We were able to put a stop to it, so it isn't like our friend is about to get a sinister knock on the castle door, but...

Some monks left town before we knew what their plan was. They said they were going to spread the word, and it's not as if there are portals scattered just anywhere in the countryside, but we needed to stop them.

That's the last thing I remember from back home.

[starmark]

but that means you don't die when you're dead
you're still there
you just go somewhere else

...

like what happens to people when they come here holy fuck
what the fuck

that's incredible
that means you could save everyone
you could use that thing and save everyone holy shit

[speakerstone]

You need to lose something to open the portal. Something of a great personal cost. Even if you had some way to control it, it isn't that simple. Countless people have died in the pursuit of what you've said.

You can't just bring people back on a whim. It isn't right.

[starmark]

it's not like it's that much different than how my life usually goes
getting sucked into bullshit i can't control just because it has to be me
at least this time i'd save some people maybe

but whatever
i don't have access to the thing anyway

and it's pretty obvious that it bothers the hell out of you

[speakerstone]

Keen of you to notice. Bulls and their shit aside, sometimes it's important to save yourself, too.

I didn't have time to think about it, before I got here. We just needed to get out of town, and quickly. But now, I think he deserves to know, needs to, even. Back in Wallachia, but I think he needs to be told here, too.

[starmark]

...

so you're going to go back, then
in wallachia

you're going to go back to the hold and get him?

[speakerstone]

I think that's what we need to do.

There are crazed monks roaming the countryside aiming to resurrect his father. We can't just...not tell him. It will hurt, I know this, but it's important.

[starmark]

he might not be there
when you get back

so if you're gonna tell him, it should probably be while you're here

[speakerstone]

...what?

Why would he not be there?

[starmark]

because he's not going back to wallachia, from here

he's not going back there

[speakerstone]

[The response is slow to come in after she reads the message.]

What do you mean he's not going back to Wallachia

Nobody said that was a choice we had

[starmark]

well it's going to be
i'm taking him home with me
that's what he wants, too

sorry if that fucks up your plans

[speakerstone]

[Those three little dots above the text box. And then none. A cycle of words rewritten.]

He's

What

How do you even

That's all you can say? Sorry if that hurts my plans?

Do I even get to know why he came to that decision? Or is it not your secret to tell?

[starmark]

look
i don't

i don't want what happened at the beach to happen again
it pisses you off when i don't say things
i get it

but tell me something
honestly

not an accusation
no fucking games

what did you imagine he was doing back at the castle
while you and trevor went away

what did that daydream look like

[speakerstone]

I imagined he needed space! To grieve! Like a human being does! But apparently that was just another mistake I made you're going to dance around forever, wasn't it?

1/2

[starmark]

for FUCK'S SAKE i just TOLD YOU I WAS

[starmark]

can you just give me the benefit of the doubt for five fucking seconds
assume for a minute that i'm doing this for a reason OTHER than that i think you're a complete bitch
and listen to me

i'm asking what you thought
i want to know what you thought
you're not stupid and you care about him and i'm trying to give YOU the benefit of all of those things

but i can't READ YOUR FUCKING MIND

[speakerstone]

I'm telling you what I thought!

I'm telling you that I thought he needed space, and that he never once acted like he would have been happier without us leaving. I didn't magically forget about him or something on the road, of course I thought about him. I thought we would visit, once we were on our way back from where we wanted to go.

You're clearly intelligent, but I can't for the life of me tell what you're thinking, not yet, and I'm not in a patient state of being. Is that enough?

[starmark]

yare yare what a fucking pain

look
you told me the thing about his dad
and the infinite corridor and whatever

so i'm going to tell you something too
and it's not to make you feel like shit
and it's not because i think you're a bitch
and it's not because i'm over here counting up all your mistakes in a little book

the only reason i'm telling you what i'm telling you
is because i get that you're frustrated

ok
i'm telling you i get it
what i'm thinking is "she's frustrated and pissed off and maybe this will help"
and that's all

so look
he didn't know that you were coming back

he didn't know, sypha
he thought you were just gone

[speakerstone]

...oh no.

[Shit. Fuck. Shit shit fuck. He thought when he'd seen them disappearing down the road that they were disappearing for good.]

I thought he understood. I thought he knew, I thought I made it clear enough when I told him. Did he really think we'd just...leave?

How is this meant to help?

[starmark]

because now you know why i can't stay calm when it's about him
just...

now maybe we both understand a little better

he's so fucking sad
and sometimes i manage to make him smile and every time i do i just
i don't know, ok

he didn't want to do anything when he got here
it was like he'd just given up
he really wanted to just crawl into his coffin and sleep until that was it
there wasn't anything in the world left for him to stay awake for
that's what he thought

i just don't want to see him like that again
he came close once
so you and i may not see eye to eye on anything else in the entire damn world and that's fine
but neither one of us wants to see him get hurt
so at least we've got that in common

[speakerstone]

Listen, I

I don't want that for him either. And I clearly have a lot to think about. Things to talk about, apologize for. Please don't take this personally, alright?

I wish I'd gotten here sooner. I wish I'd had a chance to apologize and have it matter. He has the right to make his choice, live his own life, of course he does. But what will Trevor and I do if we go back and our friend is no where to be found? Search the world over, not remembering how he's happier somewhere else?

I need time. I'm going to say something I'll regret, going on like this. I don't want that. He's happier with you here, and I wouldn't change that for the world.

But I don't know how I'm supposed to feel. About you, about any of this. I need time.

[starmark]

...
yeah

listen
for what it's worth

if he changes his mind
if he decides he wants to go back after all
i wouldn't get in the way of it

i'd hate it
i'd miss him
but i made him promise me that he would start looking for a reason to live
one that isn't just a person

and if he found that reason in wallachia then i would want him to go after it

[speakerstone]

I don't know if that would grant me any more peace, knowing we'd torn him away from you. I don't think it would.

What a mess we've gotten ourselves in.

For now, at least, can he just be our friend? Not some object in our own screwed up emotional tug-of-war. He's just our sad, vampire friend, and he cares about both of us while we're here.